Monday, June 27, 2005
YOUTHCAMP 2005 PHOTOS
i added more(:
you know what. sometimes i don't really like myself...
i think that if i had myself as a friend, i wouldn't really appreciate me.
if i had myself as a daughter, i would definitely, definitely not appreciate me. its easy to fight with parents because it is so easy to make up- it is nearly impossible to not make up. i mean, we live in the same house! whereas with friends, i tend to not take them for granted, not as much as i do for my parents. friends are not obligatory, unlike family.
how cool would it be if we could sit on small pink clouds up in heaven with little laser pointers and go "oh, this one looks good... yes i think i'll take this mother..." while merrily pointing down at a particular earthling.
sadly it doesn't work that way.
but anyways, i might end up choosing my own family because i've got better than most people do, i think. so i shall try learning to treasure them, i know it's possible and it would be a Good Thing.
ohyes i think what my eema said abt being assertive is true, it is a good quality after all. i shall be assertive.
(yeah right, muriel manning is like the queen of wishy washy)
bah wells. today i once again find myself thanking God for my friends and praying tt i'd have patience with my family members.
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THINGS TO REMEMBER
1. June Resolutions (go jogging, get 15 points and below for EOYs, do homework, do qt regularly)
2. GO TO CHURCH EARLIER NEXT SUNDAY TO EAT MADAM TEONG'S NUGGETS! YUMMMMM!
3. practice piano and flute everyday
4. cg on saturday
5. shine for God always. witness to the *THAT person*
6. get pa's birthday present:/
sighs. i hate school.
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Your Seduction Style: The Natural |
 You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen. Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people. You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find! People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast. |
hahaha RIIIIGHT...
i'm sure i subconsciously seduce people...
Thursday, June 23, 2005
YOUTH CAMP 05 PHOTOS
more coming when i get my hands on OTHER PHOTOS! hehh. *rubs hands together*
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
cheryl ong the counsellor is in.
` i want to fall in love with You † says:
its pretty normal to be single till then right
(: *sharah is a papaya says:
not really.. most pple start getting desperate and pick any rat off the street by then
(: *sharah is a papaya says:
but she's still happy and jolly so that's good(:
` i want to fall in love with You † says:
hahah well i think most of us will remain single until twenty
` i want to fall in love with You † says:
i thought thats pretty normal
(: *sharah is a papaya says:
haha it isn't normal
(: *sharah is a papaya says:
but i think it's good
(: *sharah is a papaya says:
because most pple are only mature enuff for a relationship then
` i want to fall in love with You † says:
yes.
` i want to fall in love with You † says:
you should concentrate on your studies first before getting desperate about. other things.
` i want to fall in love with You † says:
aand then you'll also be smarter and more knowledgeable by then to grab a right rat.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
maybe there's another plan, one i still can't see ; (sharah is a banana) says:
ok spit it out let's not waste more time!
SaRaH + Muriel is a papaYA! says:
pui
Monday, June 20, 2005
Everything In Its Time(corrinne may)
Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say its hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-around
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
I often feel like Im two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons why I should give up
But Im stubborn in the things I believe
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
cause maybe theres another plan
One I still cant see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time
Sunday, June 19, 2005
been hanging arnd with church friends alot this holiday and today was kinda a little of a wake up call type thing.. realised that perhaps i overlooked some things, some people. people who were right under my nose all along. and in the meantime, other situations had changed and i did not notice fast enough to catch it, but i know that somehow, these problems have to be rectified.
it's not gonna be easy but i think it's the right thing to do. and well. yeah it's nice "rediscovering" people in that sense, finding that there are others out there who are awesome people who i'd lost touch with and it's like WHOA ok we can click. and we can talk about xin shi NO PROBLEM at all. which is well. quite cool lah.
oh wells. i guess i'm quite sensitive to these things because friends are like among the things i treasure most. oh wells.
for now i've just got one thing to say: I LOVE SHARRAH! ahahahhah. seriously. she's a really awesome girl who genuinely cares about her friends, and that's something i admire in a person.(x
Saturday, June 18, 2005
just went out for dinner with clara for dinner at holland v after worship practice. IT WAS A WEIRD NIGHT. well. weird but fun. first weird thing, was that nearly the entire worship team was wearing either black shirt and jeans, or in clara's and my case, hot pink shirt and jeans. THEN. clara barn and i shared cab to holland v, where clara and i got out, then we ran straight into leb! haha was like some sorta exchange programme or sthg. eheheh then we went to thai express(SLURP) and discovered that our fathers have and identical vocabulary, and that our parents were at ikea eating dinner while we were at thai express. later, our parents actually LEFT IKEA at the same time, which was the same time clara and i parted ways. HOW WEIRD IS THAT. haha i think it's very weird.
right i was gonna write abt camp now, but my sistah wants to sleep now. haha oh wells. next time.(:
btw, guess how much i slept after camp.
22.5 hours! HAHAHA beat that, suckers.
Friday, June 17, 2005
just got back from youthcamp. SO TIRED but such a good time(: more later but in the meantime.
MEET MY HAPPY FAMILY.! hahah. me, chloe(SO CUTE RIGHT?!?), florence, fidelia, gerald.
I LOVE CHLOE! gahhh she's so cute! cutest kid on earth!!
(x
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
look at it. sickening right. 5 KINDS OF MEDICINE.
and let me tell you, the black syrup SUCKS!
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
so i've been a bit sneaky and went to your blog (hey you advertised it on your msn display name), and i read your entries. and i'm really-well-shocked. i knew you'd changed, but hadn't realised that you'd changed so much, so much more than i'd ever imagined. it baffles me to think that i used to spend my entire june holidays camping out at your house, going cycling with you and your funnyodd cousins, rollerblading into novena square and getting frowned at by security guards...
you used to be so enthusiastic about church. about grades, school. dance. i admired you, probably more than you know, and although we were from entirely different backgrounds, we still got along fine because of our similar interests and whatnot. our friendship was simple then.
so where did we go wrong? how did we manage to drift apart so suddenly, and yet in so subtle a manner that i didn't even realise it? more importantly even, is why didn't i miss our friendship if i'd been so certain that we had one in the first place? the answer: i have no idea. and i don't know if i care.
now it's like we're from totally different worlds, yet we somehow manage to co-exist on the same planet. no, i'm not scared to talk to you. somehow i even pity you, yes you, in your pampered home being waited on hand and foot, getting anything you want while hardly raising your little finger. and i know that if ever we were forced to meet again, you would probably pity me, for not having these things. seriously... if i once considered myself materialistic, i'm put to shame by you now. but who am i to judge?
you know what would be really interesting? if we were to get to know each other again now... and then we'd both be able to see very clearly the differences between us... and see where who changed, and why. better still, if time were reversed and we could do a compare and contrast study. compare what would happen if we had never drifted and always remained friends, with what really happened. i think we'd both be surprised. i just wish you'll somehow take a look into the real world, a world which does not revolve around $400 tshirts and pedder red wedges. (the shoe, not the potato chip.)
you know, just for the fun of it... i might just decide to say hello to you on msn and see what happens. after all, about 5 years ago...
you were my best friend.
Monday, June 06, 2005
i think i may die.
my temp is 39.29! amazing right.
my mum is cooking macaroni as my dying wish fufilled.
harhar.
Friday, June 03, 2005
The Lord told Noah, there's gonna be a floody, floody
Lord told Noah, there's gonna be a floody, floody,
Get those animals out of the muddy, muddy,
Children of the Lord.
The Lord told Noah, to build Him an arky, arky,
Lord told Noah, to build Him an arky, arky,
Build it out of gopher barky, barky,
Children of the Lord
The animals, the animals, they came in by twosies, twosies,
Animals, the animals, they came in by twosies, twosies,
Elephants and kangaroosies, roosies,
Children of the Lord.
It rained and poured for forty daysies, daysies,
Rained and poured for forty daysies, daysies,
Almost drove those animals crazies, crazies,
Children of the Lord.
The sun came out, and dried up the landy, landy,
Look! There's the sun, it dried up the landy, landy,
Everything was fine and dandy, dandy,
Children of the Lord.
Rise and shine, and give God the glory, glory
Rise and shine, and give God the glory, glory
Rise and shine, and give God the glory, glory
Children of the Lord.
(:
you #1:
so you want respect. so you wanna "do the best thing".
but have you ever wondered, perhaps, that it is downright insensitive to get all huffy because you freaking misinterpreted what some poor soul is trying to tell you?
is it my fault that you don't understand SIMPLE ENGLISH? my fault that you're so petty, so incapable of expressing yourself through TALKING and not yelling?
i'm not trying to go against you, can't you see that? how am i supposed to know that these miniscule minute MIDGET things bother you? esp when you don't have the basic courtesy to EXPLAIN that they bother you.
i'll bet you still haven't figured out the impact that you have on the both of us. that with one small incident, you can ruin our entire mood? i know i am bothered by it. i am bothered when you're angry with me, when youre displeased, when i let you down. in fact, it makes me damn unhappy. because honestly, i do respect you and i don't like making you upset.
do you know why? it's because i know that you genuinely care. but you get carried away sometimes, don't think, don't put yourself in my shoes. you expect me to take a "no" as a "no" and not to question reasons behind it. well i'm not a kid anymore- i WANT TO KNOW why. don't you think i'm mature enough to appreciate some explanation? i know that i'd have an easier time accepting things. that we won't disagree so much. that everyone would be happier. is it so hard, or do you just not care?
you #2:
so. taken up a hobby as spreading a little irritation in my life everyday eh. i don't know what to think of you. you appear to have a caring heart, but somehow that just gets swallowed up in all the other insensitive things that you do. and you contradict yourself- i don't even know if i can trust you sometimes. it is gonna take alot to bring us closer together, and even so.. i just don't know. yet i know that you would willingly step in between me and some deranged gunman and like.. i dunno.. kill him first. or take the bullet or whatever. you know, the word that best describes you in my eyes at the moment is "cantankerous".
and btw, STOP TRYING TO PLAN MY FREAKING FUTURE FOR ME. that is purely up to God to decide, not YOU, and you should know that, you should know that damn well. and what if i'm not willing to do what it is that you want me to do? just stopit. let me decide for once, let God do the talking.
i don't want to be a classical pianist, i don't want to teach flute to bratty little kids. honestly, i love music and i love playing the piano and really, i don't know how i lived the first 10 years of my life without fluting, but I DON'T WANT TO TEACH IT. I DON'T WANT TO BE A WEIRD GENIUS SOLOIST OR SOMETHING. are you trying to like live through me? i know you didn't have the opportunity, and when you did, you did not seize it, but still. this is MY LIFE. there is only so much you can do to mess around in it. and stop poking your nose into all my stuff it's annoying.
you #3:
i don't know about you. i don't even know if i trust you 100% of the time.
let me tell you, that i hate people who snap at me without rhyme or reason, it not only makes me upset, but i get really pissed because muriel ruth manning is NOT a punchbag. because i treasure friendships with people, it takes alot for me to trust someone, though it may not seem like that. this is why i don't like being in big groups with people i don't know. not because i'm shy or something, but becuase i have absolutely no desire to know them. and i don't want them to know me. which is no loss actually, youre better off not knowing me because really, i can be an evil friend and i can be judgemental and insensitive too.
youre a really nice girl and everything, but you're just so. FLIGHTY. gahh.
i want to vanish. live in some sub-world thing where me, God and alphabet soup co-exist. and when all the troubles are resolved, i'll consider dropping by earth once again, spreading cheer, goodwill and cynicism to the 360 degrees of this once-perfect-but-now-screwed-up-by-all-of-us planet.