When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed
To get to have you in my lifeWhen I look back on these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me
In my dreams I'll always see you
Soar above the sky
In my heart
there'll always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
Well you showed me how it feels
To feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember
All the strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams I'll always see you
Soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to
thank you now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me always
In my dreams I'll always see you
Soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
pearl harbour is so, so, so, darn sad)O:
So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is, what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
it's been a beautiful few weeks of post exam fun.
nothing spectacular, i didnt bungee jump or anything. but i've spent lots of time with friends and sister, which is more than enough for me(O:
however something's missing and i think that is not spending enough time with God.
today was a really good day. zai makes me happy. but i was just sitting here eating my delifrance puff and it dawned on me tt i have no idea where i'll be in january. it's a queer feeling.
aiya i dunno. maybe i'm just tired.(O:
as of this moment, i am school-less. seriously, if someone asked me where am i studying now, i'd be like "uhm. uhmmm". thank God mgs is more than just a name, and it's given me so much more than -ahem- good grades. (or lack thereof)
before chem crystal said she was actually feeling sad, coz it was our last paper. at the time of course i went "are you MAD!?" but then. i think i really understand what crys meant. i mean... after we were dismissed i was watching all the b4 girls leaving, and they were all whooping with joy and everything. i was waiting for the feeling of euphoria to wash over me too, but after awhile i realised it wasn't really going to come.
leaving mg is bittersweet. it's nice to know that i've survived secondary school (1/4 of my 16 years on earth!) but at the same time it's so hard to acknowledge that
it's over. naturally i've experienced those stressful sleepless nights, the getting sent out of class, failing tests, failing exams, failing to be a real true-blue witness to God during this time. BUT. there is always a good side to it. sometimes bad experiences make you stronger, and sometimes they just prove time and again how lovely your friends are, for being there all the time. it's been that way for me.
all the memories i've had in mg, the place which truly felt like a second home, sometimes even more home than home felt, i know they'll stay with me forever. although i wish i could continue to BE EDUCATED (groans) in such an atmosphere, i guess it's time to move on. it's so scary to leave such a loving place, to move on to bigger, better (?) things. and to know that hey, these times are NEVER going to be repeated.
i guess i was thinking about all these things after chem, which stopped me from feeling the rush of jubilation which the end of exams usually brings. in sec 2 (or was it 3? or maybe BOTH) eliza did a cartwheel after MEP to let out her end-of-exams burst of joy. i wish i could feel that way now, instead of reluctantly dragging my feet away. i wish i could look forward to continuing my journey in life, but yet i can't help but think back, and wish i had treasured my time more. oh gosh, i haven't even LEFT officially yet and i miss it all already!
even the little things, like how we got held back after chem because MELODY BROKE A BURETTE AND HAD TO PAY MAGSIM 22 DOLLARS "OR ELSE...".
things are going to change after this. definitely! people change, friendships change, memories change. one day denise might dress in baggy trousers and a voluminous tattered shirt, with a cap on backwards, going YOYO, WAZZUP BRO, I'M DENISO! (or maybe not) well not that i would cry or anything, it'd be quite a laugh actually, but I'M TRYING TO ILLUSTRATE A POINT. i'm worried. what if things change so much that i forget? what if somehow we all lose touch? what if jc sucks, and i REALLY roll down a hill, like i dreamed i would?
sigh.
crystal's sanest phrase of the day occured while i was rummaging through dee's utensil drawer: "i wish our mind was like a camera, then we can record all the memories". in a way, i guess it is. so much of me is made of what's happened in these past 4 years. i can never forget some things, like how in sec 1 grace went around with me looking for mrs chen, and then tried to persuade her to give me my 1 mark so i could pass math. so i guess i'll sometimes think back to "the mg days", and remember. but then, i'm sure i'll forget some things, and i really don't want to forget
anything at all!
well i guess i'll just have to be satisfied with relying on my memory and the few photos if have, to try to capture time, to try to trap the moment and its emotions, and maybe attempt to relive it in my mind. oh i don't really know what i'm getting at here! too many random tangents, too tired a mind to sort it out into neat paragraphs with one topic sentence each.
what i'm getting at is this: i love mg and i already miss it. i really
really really don't want to leave)O:
eliza sarah nureen crystal charmaine zai tessa kelly grace nana cheryl ming april zhiwei denise yvonne, you guys are the ones who've made the time in mg worthwhile. i love you!
to b3, i love you guys also! i'm sorry i made such a mess in my corner of the classroom/:
IF THE MOON WAS INHABITABLE, I WOULD SEND
YOU THERE! UGHHH!
at least for about 7 years, or until i am LESS ANNOYED.
Like the sun that rises everyday
You are so faithful, Lord You are faithful
Like the rain that you send
And every breath that I breathe
You are so faithful, Lord
Like the rose that comes alive every spring
You are so faithful, Lord You are faithful
Like the life that you give
To every beat of my heart
You are so faithful, Lord
I see the cross and the price You have to pay
I see the blood that washed my sins away
And in the midst of the storm,
through the wind and the waves
You'll still be faithful
You'll still be faithfulIf the stars refuse to shine
And time is no more
You'd still be faithful
You'd still be faithful, Lord
God has been so so so good(O:
free hugswhat an adorable video(O: and i like the song! go go go watch! yey
i hope you all are enjoying exams. there is joy in them you know! but sometimes you just have to look really hard. really really really hard. yey everyone, only about one week OR one week one day to go! thats not really alot. smile.
Come on Baby Blue
Shake up your tired eyes
The world is waiting for you
May all your dreaming fill the empty sky
But if it makes you happy
Keep on clapping
Just remember I'll be by your side
And if you dont let go it's gonna pass you by
stupid arthur. makes me so tired of lit. which used to be my favourite subject.
anyway today studying was fun! with liza ethel yvonne and kelly. ethel is super weird! and funny! hahahahahhaha. anyway we are so diverse right, with all of us being from different classes.
yup, i'm really really bored now, taking a break from lit. so i'm doing this stupid quiz. here we gooo...
Layer one: on the outside
Name: mu
Birthday: 14 03 90
eye colour: i think it's blackbrown. brackblown. thats great.
hair colour: brown
righty or lefty: right
zodiac: horse
current status: high status haha!
Layer two: on the inside
your heritage: chinese. and irish and english and who knows what else.
your fears: butterflies. eliza's bites.
your weakness: yup i'm really weak, i have no muscles. probably. heh
Layer three:yesterday, today, tommorow
your thoughts first waking up: "don't hit the snooze button. don't hit the snooze button!! ok whatever. i need more sleep."
your bedtime: dunno. definitely not early enough.
your most missed memory: hanging out with madhavi and nic at The Crates. hahaha. and family outings.
Layer four:your Pick
Pespsi or coke: Coke
macs or burger king: bk
single or group dates: i don't like dates. i prefer apricots. or raisins. my dad likes dates though. the kind from arabia i think. or was it afghanistan?
adidas or nike: err anything. probably nike.
lipton or nestea: never tried nestea.. it might be nas-tea
chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
coffee or cappuccino: coffee
Layer five: do u
smoke: no it stinks
curse: i try not to!
take a shower: many
have a crush: nope
think you have been in love: huh. no
want to get married: not really. anything lah
believe in yourself: haha. err. not really.
think u're health freak: AHHAHA i may think so, but no one else does!! hahaha
Layer six: the past month
drank alcohol: yeah, the one that was in eliza's liquor chocolate. which was bought about 2 years ago. fermented like crazy by now i think.
been to the mall: yup
been on stage: yup, but it was just because char stole my calculator so i had to chase her
eaten sushi: yup(O:
being dumped: nooo
dyed your hair: HAHA! one small piece! but you cant see it anymore
Layer seven: have u ever?
have you ever been in the stripped game: whats tt. ok it sounds weird. shld be a no.
change whoever u were to fit in: probably. its not advisable though, is it?
Layer Eight: getting old
are u hoping to get married: sometimes neutral, sometimes NO WAY.
Layer nine: in a girl/guy
fav eyes colour: hmmm. maybe gray.
best hair colour: definitely purple. AHAHHAH no lah. i don't care
Layer ten: what are u doing?
one min ago: singing a song
1 hr ago: sending videos to my sister's bf
5 hrs ago: studying at the library
1 week ago: hmm. ah i was at haato! i think.
1 year ago: hahhaha. having fun.
Layer eleven: complete the sentence
I love: God, family, friends and gelare waffles.
feel: : <---like that
I hate: omg BRANDS ESSENCE OF CHICKEN
I hide: in my cupboard when my sis wants to nag about her stupid tweezers which, honestly, WHO WANTS TO TAKE?!?!
miss: MADHAVI!!! and nest. and NIC. hahaha luckily she's coming over tmr.
need to: straighten out my life. and probably study lit.
today my mother tried to break my neck.
the story begins when i fell asleep in the car. with my upper body against the door.
mother goes to buy prata.
mother comes back.
mother doesnt know i'm asleep against the door, i obviously have no idea she's about to open the door.
mother opens the door.
i nearly fall out of the car. i wake up.
mother catches me. point of contact is my neck.
OOOOF.