you know how people sometimes inscribe random things on wet cement? (or sometimes leave footprints. or sometimes you'll even see little chicken feet marks.) yeah, i went rollerblading and couldn't help noticing that someone had left his/her mark on the pavement with a rather vulgar 4 letter word.
not only is it RUDE, but honestly, what kind of person even WANTS to leave that sort of mark?! aren't there better things to write there? if it were ME, i probably could think of a number of better things to do to fill up the space. if i were feeling lame, perhaps i would write I WAS HERE, or GRAFFITI, or something silly like that. if i were feeling encouraging, i would write JESUS LOVES YOU, or BE HAPPY DONT WORRY or leave some fact abt how smiling requires far less muscles than frowning does. if i was feeling desperate i could even write my phone number! (something i'd NEVER do, ahahha. who knows, some other pple might! since they write it on toilet doors anyway.) and if i had lots of time on my hands, i would shape the wet cement in a cockroach-shaped mound, hide behind a bush and watch people shriek as they step on the little critter.
ok maybe not.
obviously i've officially gone bonkers. my mind got lost sometime during econs when i realised i couldn't stand it anymore! seriously. i'm usually not this tired, but lately all i can do when i get home from school is lie on the couch and vegetate. THIS SHALL CHANGE! but i shall not let my mother find out or else she'll force Brands essence of chicken down my throat again. can't stand the stuff. *shudders.
ok. going to read econs, so i'll be all knowledgable come lecture tmr. cheryl lee's notes have so many things written on them, i am really rather terrified at the sheer whiteness of my own.
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When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I will try to fix you.
in my heart and my soul, Lord i give you control, consume me from the inside out says:
i show you sthg
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
haha
in my heart and my soul, Lord i give you control, consume me from the inside out says:
damn funny
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
haha okok
in my heart and my soul, Lord i give you control, consume me from the inside out says:
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and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
AGHG
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
AD;HIAJR;GOIAJG;JNAFV;KAJFNV;OAEWIRH
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
;ASKLFG;AEROIGVJAE;GIVJ;AG
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM!!!
in my heart and my soul, Lord i give you control, consume me from the inside out says:
AHHAHAHAH
in my heart and my soul, Lord i give you control, consume me from the inside out says:
hey i'm not the one with the problem
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
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and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
BUT HIS POSES OMG
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
?!!!!?!!
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
what's his cca!
in my heart and my soul, Lord i give you control, consume me from the inside out says:
HAHHAAHAH
in my heart and my soul, Lord i give you control, consume me from the inside out says:
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in my heart and my soul, Lord i give you control, consume me from the inside out says:
AHAHAH
in my heart and my soul, Lord i give you control, consume me from the inside out says:
FREAKING GROSS RIGHT.
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
EWWWW
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
argh
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
a;dfbknana;dfjvba;eroigjawr
and maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me says:
you polluter of my eyes!!!
hahhaha zai and her weird reactions. ahahha i love.<3
anw char came over today! yey(O: i love also<3
it's been an eventful week.
thanks guys for the awesome birthday which extended to DAYS! haha.
thanks for all the sweet smses.
thanks crapbags for going to the hot sticky sentosa beach to celebrate with me. for bringing a cake down and all! ahha thanks dee and crys for organizing it. i love you guys, and you made my day so special. even though i swear there was something weird in the tuna sushi. it tasted weird.
thanks for the presents-i'm so touched!
thanks oldling for treating me to haato and fish&co during the week and for driving all the way to holland v to pick me up and then giving me my RAVISHING present. ahahha. it's very sweet and i appreciate it alotalot.
thanks MUMMY!! for going to nydc with me even though you were so tired that day. i love you! even more than i love apple crumble.
thanks jolene and debbie for surprising me with my chillicoffee cake at east coast. debbie thanks for coming all the way down even though you had to leave so fast and thanks for the devious addition of ingredients into the cake. haha you schemers. thanks for the shirt and the CREATURE! i love(O: thanks joe for cycling with me and getting a butt ache, and for the mad bag shopping. haha you made me laugh SO MUCH you twit. YOU GUYS ROCK AND I LOVE YOU(O:
thanks jie for the shopping and the company, for taking the time out of your busy schedule just for me. i had lots of fun and hope we can hoco again soon!(O:
and to anyone i've forgotten. hhahah. thanks anyway. i'm sure i'll remember you soon.
ok another thing. i've begun hacking away at my secondary school worksheets files and textbooks. man, its kinda painful throwing them away. hahaha it's so good to look back on all the great times. my pw notes on "WHATS YOUR WACKY DREAM INVENTION?"from sec 1, picturing the look on kohby's face and remembering nicole who laughed and laughed at her. also found a science worksheet from sec 2, where april drew a cute crab next to my name, and mrs lee painstakingly CANCELLED the crab with her red pen. what a weirdo! then there are all the books with weird drawings (mostly by eliza). my math book has a variety of moles on it. drawn by the great artist herself. sigh. then there are the math worksheets! all with "see me!"s written on them next to dismal marks. haha. i miss secondary school. it made such a great impact on who i am.
lastly, i've just finished talking to ollie. he's made me think abt quite a few things. anddd. i think i have to start making a greater effort in being a better Christian. THANKS OLLIE. for the talk, and for sending me the thing. i promise i'll do it this week!(O: i think this talk was one that should have happened much earlier; nonetheless, i'm happy it happened anyway. FRIEND!((O:
ok i lied. i forgot to mention. today i met up with MING! finally got to eat my ikea meatballs and BOUGHT MY BAG! which was really a steal at 44 bucks, since the other one i liked was like. 103 or something like that. IM A HAPPY GIRL. and ming is so funny. i kept asking her "should i get this bag" and she'd go, "IS IT CALLING OUT TO YOU?!" hahahahaha. omg. THANKS MING FOR A GREAT DAY. LOVELOVE.
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When you want it
When you need it
Youll always have the best of me
I cant help it, believe it
Youll always get the best of me
i surprise myself. i actually have not outgrown the s club 7 phase, as i previously thought. this is disturbing! i'm too old to like s club 7.
suddenly the moment's goneand all your dreams are upside downand you just wanna change the way the world goes round.ah well. i'm going to be 17 on wednesday. i think it's an awfully old age to be. (no offence to anyone.) seriously. 17 means i'm gonna be past mid teens. it means more responsibilities, more choices to make, more freedom to make these choices. i guess everyone just deals with it. everyone has to learn to stand on their own two feet sooner or later, don't they? ahha. being older can be good too(O: i guess, you're given chances to make bigger differences, dream bigger dreams, make long lasting impacts maybe- in short, to ultimately live your own life.
i know i have high hopes for being 17.
above all, i hope that it's a year where i'll really grow into a more Godly person. i know i know, i'm always saying that. but i now understand something more. that it's never easy! that when God moulds you into a better person, sometimes you go through situations that are difficult, situations that break you and hurt you, situations that sometimes you just feel like running away from. yet it's from these that make you more matured, that teach you so much, and that ultimately, you could/should thank Him for. and i hope that as i become a more Godly person, that my actions would show as such. yup, all humans make poor examples of a Christian at some point or another. thus, maybe i could even say that i am VERY VERY human, the number of mistakes i've made. oh well. i just pray that God will use me and shape me as He pleases(O:
and once again, i find myself thanking God for blessing me with really really wonderful friends. in the past year, i've truly gotten to know (as in KNOW) some people, and they've proven time and again to be such an encouragement to me.
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sadCarry you around when your arthritis is badAll I wanna do is grow old with youI'll get your medicine when your tummy achesBuild you a fire if the furnace breaksOh it could be so nice, growing old with youI'll miss youI'll kiss youGive you my coat when you are coldI'll need youI'll feed youEven let you hold the remote control...I wanna grow old with you
All things work for our good
though
sometimes we can’t see how they couldStruggles that break our hearts in two
sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what’s best for us
His ways are not our own
So
when your pathway grows dimand you just can’t see HimRemember He’s still on the throneGod is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don’t understand
when you don’t see His plan
When you can’t trace His hand
trust His heart
He sees the Master plan
He holds the future in His handsSo don’t live as those who have no hopeAll our hope is found in Him
We walk in present knowledge
but
He sees the first and the last
And like a tapestry
He’s weaving you and me
to someday be just like Him
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you
don’t understandwhen you
don’t see His planWhen you
can’t trace His handtrust His heartsomeone sang this for chapel once. i think it was a very scary thing to do. and i think the girl was very brave to do it. anyway. i think it' a very very encouraging song.(O:
today i got caught in the rain! my blouse became transparent! GULP. then i got home and slept and got woken up by my MOTHER to go buy HOT DOG BREAD. in the rain AGAIN. faints. anyway, thats not important. the important aspect of this story is
The Irritant at 7 11.the story begins when i took my kitkat chunky from the shelf and then headed to the counter. while i was walking to the counter this auntie was heading to the counter from the opposite side. since there wasnt much space between the counter and the shelf, we had to stand BESIDE the first guy in the queue. only on opposite sides of him. anyway, even though i got there about 2 seconds before the auntie, i decided to let her go first out of the goodwill of my heart, and since she didnt seem like an irritant.
the first guy in the queue finished paying up and made his exit. before i could even smile at the auntie and allow her to walk forward, she BARGED forward, swinging her lump of a handbag around so as to block me from making MY way to the cashier. I TELL YOU. it is one thing to allow someone to be first, but it is a WHOLE DIFFERENT THING WHEN THEY ARE SO KIASU AND BARGE HERE AND THERE AND EVERYWHERE. i was so irritated i wanted to whack her with my huge pole of an umbrella. but that would be rude. so i just sprinkled her stupid skirt with it. and its not just the barging ok. it was the FACE. the look of EAGER BEAVER-NESS. somemore she went and inquired about all the newspapers in the world ok! honestly, paying 95cents for my bag of bread would have taken 1/7 of the time SHE took. GROAR.
anyway today i watched the a level people get their results! man, in 2 years i will be there (i think. i really pray and hope i don't get retained or sthg). probably at the time it will seem like the years flew by, but right now it feels like everyday is so ultra long. i was thinking abt something... i think. sometimes the results are really out of your hands. sometimes you do really badly though you studied, sometimes you do really well though you hardly did, but yet it is so clear how God's hand plays a part in all these situations, and how eventually you really see how He had it all planned out. sometimes at the time you just cry and cry, coz it seems like you've failed, you've disappointed yourself, your friends, your family, even God. but you know, sometimes it works out for the best. and sometimes, life isn't even all about studying hard. i'm sure isaac newton wasnt studying under the tree when he saw the apple drop. haha, in other words, there's much to be learnt from not studying.
which is not to say i shan't study. but just tt... i guess i have to try to focus during the times which i do, and in my spare time, perhaps i can spend more time doing worthwhile things. things like service, at home or in church or in tuition ministry, and spending more time with God. and just trust that in the end, my a level results will be just exactly as God intends them to be(O:
anyway, i've been talking to the nana and she managed to sum up what i think...
Christina says:
haha oh yeah life's ok. im getting quite sick of Xjc though! like i miss mg and all the comofrt of having Godly friends and stuff...
yea ac's fun and all. but i just miss those days. man i even miss studying for o's! haha all the times in the canteen with my classmates, studying and spying on the love triangle between the teachers, studying eotp with gina in the quadrangle and ending up chatting non stop about everything else but eotp, studying with crystal in the canteen and eating that weird green icecream, sitting on the carpark with wilder hoping that the bird wouldnt shit on us while we studied lit, with liza and ethel at kfc, with denise at her house (thanks for forcing me to study, dee), with zai and char at gelare, all the math tuitions with zai (thanks for that b3 zai! i owe it to you), at haato with eliza and debbie and jessie, at holland v with grace... man all these memories, they'll always remain with me(O:
why don't we hit restartand pause it at our favorite parts.we'll skip the goodbyes.nice song. thanks for sending it to me, it's super duper duper nice. haaha. right. anyway i think i'm off now. busy weekend coming my way. zzz. thank goodness tuesday is a holiday. hahha and friday is orientation. omg mass dance. MY PARTNER DIDNT GET BACK INTO AC. hahahaha. good for me.(O:
AHHAHAHA FUNNY CONVO! so loser! hahahahah what a nice break to the monotony of econs. ahhahaha.
mr bathe says:
thinking of times when you've thinked
mr bathe says:
thunk
mr bathe says:
oh yes
i'll follow you when the stars go blue says:
thunk!?
mr bathe says:
thoughy
mr bathe says:
tought
mr bathe says:
thought
anyway i went back to mg today! it was really good to catch up with ms ho and ms bong and laoshi again, mg teachers are so so nice. and hockseng is so so funny. i miss my second home/: