Saturday, April 29, 2006
some people say God's love is like the ocean, coz it's deep/wide/big.
others say it's like a rock, firm and long-lasting.
i say it's like chemical equations, coz i don't really understand it.
some people say God's love is like the ocean, coz it's deep/wide/big.
others say it's like a rock, firm and long-lasting.
i say it's like chemical equations, coz i don't really understand it.
Monday, April 24, 2006
Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I'm Your friend
You are my desire
No one else will do
'Cause nothing else could take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to You
You're all I want
You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want
Help me know You are near
Sunday, April 09, 2006
went to singpost today with tingxu and moss to study. COFFEE BEAN CARROT CAKE IS BEST! yea! ok then i took train back, and decided to walk home from dover mrt. so i was walking along and listening to bo bice's album, and it was really a nice walk.
i saw this yellow bird fly past, and i recalled that when i was young there used to be quite a few in the forest next to my house, and whenever my mom saw one she'd call me, and shout "YELLOW BIRD YELLOW BIRD!" nowadays though, there arent very many in the forest, instead there are green birds. i think the yellow and the blue (yes there ARE blue birds) crossbred.
then i saw this rabbit suddenly run out of the forest and start digging in the grass beside me, and it was SO SUPER CUTE! but it made me a little sad, thinking about Muffy. and its rather unpleasant demise. (i say "it" rather than "her" coz "her" makes Muffy seem more real and then i feel sad again.)
passed by my friend's house and started thinking about this friend. i wish... well i wish alot of things, too many to explain.
passed my mom's office and recall that i used to go there every day after school in the first half of sec 1. used to take the same buses as nicole ng in order to get there, and that was the only reason why i didnt mind travelling about so much. nic's a nice kid. i only wish we had as much time to kill together now as we did last time.
well most of my walk i was just thinking about random things. nothing in particular, and of course i can't list them all here.
It's my life, my time to find the answers
Don't always know what kind of road's in front of me
But I'll go slow wanna remember every moment
That passes by the goodness ride has everything
It's my life
nice song by BO BICE. i think his name's annoying but oh wells.
and it's a real good fight
trying to find what's mine
tryin' to be who i'm supposed to be
Saturday, April 08, 2006
crystal was just sending me home in her car, and i heard this song on the radio that i had heard last year on the way to swim meet.
this year, swim meet is in a few days time.
TIME PASSES SO QUICKLY. and things do change very much. for example, the crapbag gang had like 11 people in sec 2. then now there's 11 of us plus zai, char, tessa, kelly, vonne... is nana? i dunno. it all sort of overlaps dontcha think? and other things changed as well of course. then there are things which won't change, like last year i'd sat with lydia for swim meet. and this year i probably will again?
anyway dee's house was fun(: i laughed quite hard, esp at stupid yvonne: "BUT ITS THE ORIGINAL RONALD MCDONALD!" and of course, the wonderful mixture of tabasco sauce and lemonade zai and i created for sarah. lovely.
another thing tt made me happy was chatting with Moss on the phone yesterday. it's always nice catching up, coz it's not only very amusing, but i guess i can talk to her abt nearly anything, so it's quite cool lah(O: yeah. overall i'd say i've had a pretty good friday and saturday, and a rather relaxing time. i MUST start studying soon!)O:
Friday, April 07, 2006
"Even now, I am still learning that although we cannot see God His provision never fails in bringing to us all we need to see. I came across a quote by G.K. Chesterton, "God is like the sun. You cannot look at Him, but without Him, you cannot see anything". There are still moments when I think to myself, "God, you really make this too complicated by keeping so quiet". But I have come to a single conclusion, that in His time, His plans are secure and are well underway. He has a purpose for all things in the larger narrative."
yup.
Monday, April 03, 2006
What does your handwriting say about YOU?
haha.
okok i've learnt something these past few days. i've learnt about trust.
basically i'm wondering when and how one should trust God. i mean, obviously if you're capable of helping yourself to do something, do it. but if you surrender it to God, you are trusting Him let His will be done, and no matter whether this something turns out good or bad in the end, to praise God and give thanks anyway. isn't this impossibly difficult?! and then there was the question of one's lifespan: why would you pray for someone's life to be prolonged when heaven is so much better? ah well. i had alot of questions yesterday, to do with trusting God, as well as trusting people.
"When we ask God for a prayer request, if it is answered, we praise God. and if it isn't we still must thank Him coz we must trust that He knows everything u see."
"abt Trusting God and being let down coz wat u requested for didn't work out, all I can say is God has POWER and He knows everything. He knows my character so well, even better then I know myself.."
"abt being let down.. I dun think God want to let u down. He just got smth better."
"whenever u pray and trust and commit smth to the Lord, know about wat u ask for and be ready to be disappointed. not tt God wants to disappoint u but God knows wats best for u"
--angcai, 020406
i had quite alot to reflect on after this conversation, and after some of the events which took place yesterday. such as the words of the Auntie. but then i did qt and this verse just appeared:
"we live by faith, not by sight." -- 2 Corinthians 5:7
and it meant everything to me. it served as a reminder that not all my questions to God and about God are going to be answered, yet faith alone will enable me to cling on to God's promises. that sometimes things seem to be hopeless, impossible or simply bizarre, yet God knows why these things occur. and you know what? they're all part of His plan. as i said to Char, up to this point, i have never really felt that i have been of great use to God in terms of spreading the Word, and being a good witness. i cannot say that i have strived to seek His will all the time, round the clock, nor that i have been constantly aware of my purpose here on earth.
it's time to change.
the only thing is this: although i truly wish i can be of use to God, and that everything i do is an offering to Him, it is easy to forget, and to go my own way.
i guess i'll just depend on God to renew my strength, and my desire to serve Him.
well this has been a post with lots of disorganized thoughts and random tangents, and i guess pple will get lost in my thoughts (even i am lost in my thoughts man). another post will follow this. in which i will brush up on my organization skills!
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oh yeah and you know. charmaine now knows so much about me tt it's almost scary. she probably has the power to kill me or sthg now. frrrreaky. luckily she's trustworthy hor. *wink