Tuesday, June 07, 2005
so i've been a bit sneaky and went to your blog (hey you advertised it on your msn display name), and i read your entries. and i'm really-well-shocked. i knew you'd changed, but hadn't realised that you'd changed so much, so much more than i'd ever imagined. it baffles me to think that i used to spend my entire june holidays camping out at your house, going cycling with you and your funnyodd cousins, rollerblading into novena square and getting frowned at by security guards...
you used to be so enthusiastic about church. about grades, school. dance. i admired you, probably more than you know, and although we were from entirely different backgrounds, we still got along fine because of our similar interests and whatnot. our friendship was simple then.
so where did we go wrong? how did we manage to drift apart so suddenly, and yet in so subtle a manner that i didn't even realise it? more importantly even, is why didn't i miss our friendship if i'd been so certain that we had one in the first place? the answer: i have no idea. and i don't know if i care.
now it's like we're from totally different worlds, yet we somehow manage to co-exist on the same planet. no, i'm not scared to talk to you. somehow i even pity you, yes you, in your pampered home being waited on hand and foot, getting anything you want while hardly raising your little finger. and i know that if ever we were forced to meet again, you would probably pity me, for not having these things. seriously... if i once considered myself materialistic, i'm put to shame by you now. but who am i to judge?
you know what would be really interesting? if we were to get to know each other again now... and then we'd both be able to see very clearly the differences between us... and see where who changed, and why. better still, if time were reversed and we could do a compare and contrast study. compare what would happen if we had never drifted and always remained friends, with what really happened. i think we'd both be surprised. i just wish you'll somehow take a look into the real world, a world which does not revolve around $400 tshirts and pedder red wedges. (the shoe, not the potato chip.)
you know, just for the fun of it... i might just decide to say hello to you on msn and see what happens. after all, about 5 years ago...
you were my best friend.