Sunday, July 31, 2005
the human race is such a disappointment, don't you think?
really, everyone expects everyone else to be nice to them while they themselves are allowed to be mean and evil. i know, i'm like that sometimes... but it's quite sickening when you try to make an effort to be nice to people and they're just flat out. BLAH. yes.
and. just a thought. is it evil to call someone a shithead if they really are a shithead?
but we digress. anyways. right now, there's this battle raging around in my head. where 2 of my instincts are rather in a conflict. on the one hand, i know i must try to be a good Christian, and a good witness to people and such. HOWEVER. i know too, that i'm not exactly an ultra guaikia, and therefore may give people a warped view of Christians in that i claim to be one and yet do not live out my faith.
it is tempting to just be my evil self. but thats not right either, is it.
oh wells. i feel the need to whack something now. *whack whack pow bish.
lydia says i'm cynical and i see the glass as half empty. that's quite sad, because i don't think i really do. for example. if the apple juice in the fridge is running low, i would write "buy apple juice" on a piece of postit pad and stick it to the fridge. so is that optimistic, pessimistic, or practical?
*shrugs. if i had the power to do anything in the world right now, i would probably alter the calender so that this coming saturday simply vanished, then we wouldn't have mep concert. STUPID STUPID MEP CONCERT. blah. but do not allow me to drag you down with cynicism, my happy friends, ho no! kindly continue being happy and perhaps it might be a success.
just perhaps.