Monday, April 03, 2006
What does your handwriting say about YOU?
haha.
okok i've learnt something these past few days. i've learnt about trust.
basically i'm wondering when and how one should trust God. i mean, obviously if you're capable of helping yourself to do something, do it. but if you surrender it to God, you are trusting Him let His will be done, and no matter whether this something turns out good or bad in the end, to praise God and give thanks anyway. isn't this impossibly difficult?! and then there was the question of one's lifespan: why would you pray for someone's life to be prolonged when heaven is so much better? ah well. i had alot of questions yesterday, to do with trusting God, as well as trusting people.
"When we ask God for a prayer request, if it is answered, we praise God. and if it isn't we still must thank Him coz we must trust that He knows everything u see."
"abt Trusting God and being let down coz wat u requested for didn't work out, all I can say is God has POWER and He knows everything. He knows my character so well, even better then I know myself.."
"abt being let down.. I dun think God want to let u down. He just got smth better."
"whenever u pray and trust and commit smth to the Lord, know about wat u ask for and be ready to be disappointed. not tt God wants to disappoint u but God knows wats best for u"
--angcai, 020406
i had quite alot to reflect on after this conversation, and after some of the events which took place yesterday. such as the words of the Auntie. but then i did qt and this verse just appeared:
"we live by faith, not by sight." -- 2 Corinthians 5:7
and it meant everything to me. it served as a reminder that not all my questions to God and about God are going to be answered, yet faith alone will enable me to cling on to God's promises. that sometimes things seem to be hopeless, impossible or simply bizarre, yet God knows why these things occur. and you know what? they're all part of His plan. as i said to Char, up to this point, i have never really felt that i have been of great use to God in terms of spreading the Word, and being a good witness. i cannot say that i have strived to seek His will all the time, round the clock, nor that i have been constantly aware of my purpose here on earth.
it's time to change.
the only thing is this: although i truly wish i can be of use to God, and that everything i do is an offering to Him, it is easy to forget, and to go my own way.
i guess i'll just depend on God to renew my strength, and my desire to serve Him.
well this has been a post with lots of disorganized thoughts and random tangents, and i guess pple will get lost in my thoughts (even i am lost in my thoughts man). another post will follow this. in which i will brush up on my organization skills!
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oh yeah and you know. charmaine now knows so much about me tt it's almost scary. she probably has the power to kill me or sthg now. frrrreaky. luckily she's trustworthy hor. *wink