Tuesday, August 15, 2006
"My soul, wait only upon God;
for my expectation is from Him.
He only is my rock and my salvation;
He is my defense; i shall not be moved.
In God is my salvation and my glory;
the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.
Trust in Him at all times;
people, pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us."
Psalm 62:5-8
Something that doesn't come easy for me in my own walk with God is, i suppose, submission. Some people say i'm a control freak; i don't really think that is true. However, on thing which i really hate is venturing into the unknown... i am strongly change averse. (i am just going to DIE when i go to jc. probably.) i love predictable stuff. i love knowing what i'm eating, where i'm going, how my hair will look BEFORE i cut it (though thats not so possible.)
anyway, i'm really trying to learn how to make myself completely available to Him, so that He may use me in whatever way He wants to. i really want to. but yet, it is just so difficult.
anyway, a very dear friend said in a letter today: "I kind of like and hate the prelims. Hate cos we have to study for it, but liking it cos this is one time i'm really doing it for God... I'm taking the leap of faith and just putting each paper i sit for into His hands. Strangely, i feel peace."
i think it takes alot of guts to let go, and give it all to Him. i'm still trying. anyway, to this friend, i take my hat off to you. thank you sharing your thoughts with me. they have somehow made me think about things that perhaps i should have been thinking about but wasn't. yeah.
also, tessa and dee's emails are really encouraging. thanks guys(O: you really made my day.
with that said, i leave you with a verse:
psalm 34:17-
the Lord is close to the brokenhearted and heals those who are crushed in spirit.