Wednesday, January 02, 2008
oftentimes, i think to myself that even if i could see into the future, i wouldn't want to. i wouldn't want to spoil the surprises that life brings, and i wouldn't want to live in constant anticipation of whatever bad things that may happen.
then suddenly something like this happens, and i think that just maybe, i'd be better off knowing. just so i can prepare myself for it, and never take anything i have for granted. i guess only the knowledge that you're gonna lose something, can make you cherish it for its full value while it lasts.
it's somewhat like knowing you have, say, a levels ahead. you dread it, but you accept it, and you prepare for it. if only that were possible on a much larger scale, to be applied to much more important things.
in any case, my heart goes out to you.